"you were not asking for it. but loving him was red alex slowly nodded before he felt henrys soft lips against him. why? losing him was blue like i've never known missing him was dark gray all alone forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met but loving him was red loving him was red touching him was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you memorizing him was like easy as knowing all the words to your own favorite . . his head hurt, and all he really wanted to do was go to sleep. he was only partially aware while the principle gave a speech. she just stared at him, he could almost see the gears turning in her head. Terms of use, alex refused to believe nora really thought this. the night was promptly finished with june showing alex how horrible of a boyfriend tommy was. Work Search: ?also, this is me projecting onto alex. youalways do this! alex and tommy had been going back and forth with each other for at least ten minutes. 2. june but everything in his gut shifted when he saw the way liam beamed at him with joy mid speech. forgetting him was like this character is very much based on someone from my real life, so yeah, enjoy!! 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Touching him was like realizing.. - YouTube 0:00 / 0:08 Touching him was like realizing.. it just feels likeit feels like you just dont really care about me; like youre using me, his voice hushed, practically an inaudible whisper. trying to change your mind 5. tommy yeah, anything, alex whispered, more or less breathless, promise youre not mad at me? he asked. he locked the door to their bedroom, throwing as many of his clothes as he could into a duffel bag. it was his last first day of high school and it was so important to him. it was far too hot to be completely covered with a graduation gown but who was he to complain, on such an important day in his life. im not mad, i was just saying i didnt appreciate how you were flirting with that girl basically the entire night, he argued back. alex felt his body almost sag in relief, melting into henrys embrace. what? WE DID IT! all he got in return was a small smile from liam while being roughly placed down away from him. loving him was red instead, with the sounds of alexs pleads of sorry and please forgive me, and one last final push, june, close to yelling, GET OUT!. Was right there in front of you. sorry yeah actually- im saving it for a friend, he mumbled, looking back down at the table. Missing him was dark gray, all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Loving him was red Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. he took off running up the stairs, passed june, straight into his room, diving under the covers. dont. it is super unlikely that the people in alexs life did not hug him on a regular basis, but im a sucker for angst so. the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. after that the rest of the names called went by relatively fast. he heard the door to his room close gently, and the sound of heavy footsteps move down the stairs. We bring you the songs Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords sung by Taylor Swift. he took off running up the stairs, passed june, straight into his room, diving under the covers. these have all been very much out of character, for the sake of the story. tommy simply just stared at alex. 6. henry. he clapped so hard, and let out a small shout of approval, before locking eyes with liam, his eyes brightening all that much more. when he got home, his first instinct was the invite nora over, hoping for some positive reinforcement from her. tommy was tall, taller than alex, (who wasnt) with fluffy brown hair, soft brown eyes, with multiple piercings. he couldnt tell henry. This is just a preview! im sorry. alex stood up, moved upstairs ignoring henrys shouts. i know im not the best at showing my love, but that doesnt mean anything.. even when he hastily threw his body back, his eyes wide and almost scared, she still didnt seem to get the hint. You know he's an all or nothing kind of guy." "I.. gotta let go he tasted like mint and earl gray tea, and he smelled like fresh linen. liam always claimed he just wasnt ready yet but alex did not believe he would ever be ready. Contact youve been doing such big things and i understand its going to take up some more time. he immediately leapt off the stage, pushing his way through the crowds of people, taking as large of steps as he could to make it over there. 95 guests he pushed himself up on his tiptoes letting his lips meet tommys. you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! and besides, i said i was sorry, what more could you want from me. alexs heart wholly broke. he stood facing the blank white door. why would it be your fault? contrary to what alex thought hed see, henry did not look angry or upset, but more supportive than ever. it was uncomfortable and left an uneasy feeling in alexs stomach. sweetheart, where is this coming from? henry urged. alex mumbled the chant of stupid, stupid, stupid as he stumbled through the doors of the brownstone. his name was called what felt like ages ago, even though it was probably around 20 minutes, and he ached to just throw his cap up so he could leave. But loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red. he was such an important part of my life and he justnever really wanted me at all.. 5. tommy If you log in you can store your preference and never be asked again. Summary: 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed + 1 time henry gave it to him. and if you possibly think, in any world, that this would make me stop loving youthat i could ever stop loving you at all, then you are sorely mistaken, henry smiled, pulling alex into his arms. he let out a small cry, sounding almost like an injured puppy. If you have any query, leave us a comment. he swiftly moved passed henry when he opened the door, his brain moving 100 miles per hour. comes back to me burning red when he finally got a moment alone with liam in his room, he pushed liam off of him in the middle of their kiss, and crossed his arms around himself. instead, alex broke the silence for him, continuing on, someone kissed me today and i didnt want it. ill do it for you.. 2023 it was 10:47. way past the time he shouldve been in bed and asleep, but through the hushed shouts coming from the kitchen and junes sobs next door, sleep just seemed impossible to him. you cant just interrupt me like that, its rude. he didnt care. a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. as soon as she got there she went off on a tangent about how horrible her day was. and i know how hard it is to come out, but its been 3 years. alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. okay, we always talk about you, and its always about your problems. the harsh words that left his parents mouths almost made him want to cry. this chapter hurt so much more because it hits close to home. like the colors in autumn so bright im sorry, he whispered, his eyes glossy. touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi Chapter 3: nora Summary: alex has a horrible day at school. he just couldnt help it, never getting the feeling of comfort in moments like these, and all he could do in turn is be angry at the world. we arent exclusive, or dating. after that the rest of the names called went by relatively fast. he let the feeling of grief overtake him until he was able to push himself up and onto his bed. he pulled them up over his head, covering his ears, letting out soft sobs into the silent air. i would have never wanted you to feel like this. henry- i thinki think we should get a divorce. alex really really did not know where these words were coming from. i'm so sorry, i don't mean to make you feel bad. he couldnt pinpoint the exact emotion, but if you asked alex he would probably say tommy looked almost disgusted in him. 3. nora all he knew was that once he heard the words, fine then leave, see if i fucking care leave his moms mouth, he had to do something. alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. okay, we always talk about you, and its always about your problems. alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. i was gonna hold off on posting this one, but i could wait any longer. just as quickly as he got there, he felt himself get pulled off, falling to the ground. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. she didnt stop. june probably wouldnt have heard him if not for their proximity. Memorizing him was as easy as knowing. im so sorry. he was now aware of his body shaking and the tears rolling down his cheeks. it was 10:47. way past the time he shouldve been in bed and asleep, but through the hushed shouts coming from the kitchen and junes sobs next door, sleep just seemed impossible to him. memorizing him was like touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you; memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song; fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer; regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong [x&x] june talked to him about his unhealthy coping mechanisms and how he needed to control them but june probably couldnt care less about him right now. he pushed himself up on his tiptoes letting his lips meet tommys. the bars were cold against his face and made him cringe. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. at june or really, in any situation. but then the tears never came. in a desperate attempt to control his breathing, he fell to the ground, his body formed a small shaking ball on the ground. Please consider turning it on! see, you know i love you, and i cant believe you would ever doubt me about that. although it was obvious they had something special, liam wasnt out yet, and they could only meet in secrecy. he met her eyes, scared and tearful, but she did not hold his gaze. which was definitely way to fast. i messed everything up, and now youre mad at me. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. he immediately pushed his arms to wrap around himself, letting his tears fall freely, sobs shaking his shoulders against the couch. he couldnt pinpoint the exact emotion, but if you asked alex he would probably say tommy looked almost disgusted in him. im not the best with love either, i was raised in a loveless household. This is the end of Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Lyrics. if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. which was definitely way to fast. he knew they talked about him a lot, but he usually initiated the conversations and they would just go from there. alex finally gets the comfort he needs in his times of hurt. one second he was thinking about the barista, and then the next moment he was thinking about how henry would hate him for it. are you single? he inwardly cringed at the question. it was a habit he took up the night his dad had left him, and he had nothing, and no one to turn to. why? alex sat on the burning hot plastic of the chair, his hands fidgeting with each other as sweat dripped down his forehead. tommy was tall, taller than alex, (who wasnt) with fluffy brown hair, soft brown eyes, with multiple piercings. he was almost sure he did. and because alex would do anything for a little male validation, he completely and utterly folds. alex had dumped so much on him at once he didnt know how to process it. the moment we have all been waiting for. i was talking alex! he picked at the wood table, small pieces falling to the ground. If you accept cookies from our site and you choose "Proceed", you will not be asked again during this session (that is, until you close your browser). one second he was thinking about the barista, and then the next moment he was thinking about how henry would hate him for it. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong [Chorus:] he wanted to be happy with his boyfriend for once, sue him. i guess im just worried, but im sorry. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", 1. ellen and oscar once he knew he was alone, his legs gave out, forcing his body to the ground. i pushed them off but i still feel gross, but its all my fault.. hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. this chapter hurt so much more because it hits close to home. nora doesnt let him talk about it. liam was only a friend. Songs lyrics and translations to be found here are protected by copyright of their owners and are meant for educative purposes only. alex mumbled the chant of stupid, stupid, stupid as he stumbled through the doors of the brownstone. Ending so suddenly. but they get in a little fight. yeah, he spat out. left kudos on this work! If you proceed you have agreed that you are willing to see such content. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. 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[Verse 1: Ally & Normani] Loving him is like driving a new Maserati. touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi. that should be a series tbh. go to sleep alex.. ill do it for you.. okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. 15-jun-2021 - CARMELINA (@likemilknhoney) added a photo to their Instagram account: "Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him" While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. henry was sure he would do anything for this man. anytime i get to spend with you in enough, i dont care what we are doing.. it was hopeless for them. his head hurt, and all he really wanted to do was go to sleep. i guess i'm just worried, but i'm sorry. and its so much easier to not let it all happen to me, and trying to leave you was so selfish of me, but its so much easier. but that doesnt mean anything. tears silently ran down his cheeks at the feeling of comfort. just because i get with other people sometimes doesnt mean i dont care about you. tell myself its time now ?also, this is me projecting onto alex. Touching him was like, realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you. he was practically vibrating with joy as he led his senior class in moving the tassel, then leading them into throwing their caps into the air. starts and ends within the same node. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. you did not deserve this, at all. the harsh words that left his parents mouths almost made him want to cry. i hate to be the bearer of bad news but your life isnotas bad as you make it seem and youre so overdramatic, cant it ever be about me? alex wanted to cry. alex fell asleep with his hands clutching his blanket against his chest, and some lotion june had rubbed on his cheek only a few moments before, making the injury sting more than he thinks it should. 95 guests when he finally got a moment alone with liam in his room, he pushed liam off of him in the middle of their kiss, and crossed his arms around himself. 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